1. |
Gorilla Position
03:18
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I’m coming straight out of the gate like an ex convict who just finished a 20 stretch
Thought that I was out of bars, but I’ve got plenty left
Basically spent the majority of my adult life in a sweat box
Perfecting rhythms and flows and nobody’s bettered me yet
No matter how many have tried I’ve never fallen once
Used to rhyme with a closed mind, now it’s an open box
Used to want to vacate the booth when I was given the opening spot
Til I realised how much I got off my chest when I started opening up
They just wanted to drop me in another pool of rappers
Not knowing I’ve been chlorine my whole life
I’d clean house
They’d try to mess with my rhythm stoke
I’d never breath out
Try and hold me under longer
Don’t try to tell me what it means to reach out
I had a change of heart
In other words I bypassed my own shit
Needed to regroup forget my old shit
Hone in on this craft that I’ve mastered and hold it
Til I’ve squeezed the life up out of it and can say that I’ve owned it
They love to ride on that skippy flow that I do so often
If certain people no longer wanna put me on then I’m off then
Feel like I’m the offspring of Steve Austin
I guess I’m pretty fly for a white guy, and I’m stone cold when I’m stomping
Guess I better learn from the errors that I’m churned out over the years
Find myself back on the steps on the church of the Salvation Army
Clutching a cordless mic
Do your research, and maybe you’ll believe me when I say I’ve been following Booths my whole life
I
I
Been lost inside a world that I don't care to live in
Use my mic to say what I like and I don't care who listens
Shared with you emotions they wont dare admit
And now they locked my art inside a box that it can barely fit in
Scary feeling
When you realise that you been barely living
Bare decisions made from an unfair position Stoned , unprepared to give em
Dark rings around my eyes and all my hair is missing
Far from where I started but too far from where my parents visioned, fair admittance
Listen
I've been saying that for years
Through the darkness through the hardship
Through the carnage through the tears
Since the moment that I started been that artist that they fear
Cuz my bars will hit your soul whilst they be targeting your ears
They said my market disappeared and I need to switch the pattern with it
Told em shut the fuck up cuz I haven't finished
Rapping isn't nothing like them fashion victims tag you in it's
Way more than unbalanced kids with challenges
Still I don't see no challenge this
Is natural to some of us
No cap to those who coming up
Regardless of your numbers know
My catalogue is fucking nuts
Go check my legacy I earned my stripes
But burning herb all night had made me nervous and uncertain I
Spent years to hide that certain side of me that causes pain
Suppression caused depression and the hurt it caused insane
Know it hurts when called insane by the ones you love the most
But they the ones who fell in love with a ghost and now I'm certain it is
Time that I unearth the spirit
Resurrect that person with it
Merged with what I've learnt
Give my all til I resurface winning
Bounce back more determined given all that I done
And I'll decide when its over and done
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2. |
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Why would I scream ‘fore’
When I can talk sense into you and beat you the ‘fair way’
I can ‘pitch and putt’ my point across on the airwaves
I could beat you in the open
Or on a Sunday afternoon straight after the Lord’s Prayer
Turn you into a walking parody of yourself in a meme with dancing Paul Bearers
And that's not even a wrestling pun (nah)
I’m not aiming to be done until they all stare
Quickly swallow that ‘E’ until I’m in an all star game
If only I didn’t have that poor start, when I was piss poor
Coz when I started to spit it would quickly piss down and pour rain
I would rather forfeit fame, than go through that game again
If you were to walk in my shoes I don’t think you’d have much to say
That’s where I think different
That’s where Brinkworth says (Listen)
I’ve got the type of mentality that could even shut Michael Jordan down like the ‘89 Pistons
(Woo)
I’d dunk on you fuckers and call you a poor excuse
Of a lyricist,
It’s like I’m Kel and the pen is my orange juice
Or is that orange soda for the older viewers
Sod it, I’ll just live down another mistake like when I let my life sink down in the sewers
Fuck it, I’ll never figure out how big I could have been
If I figured out how to treat certain figures in the scene
They’d rather just point fingers aimed at me, instead of interfering
It could have all been intervened
Forget it listen here
Even if we went out in a blaze of glory, you still couldn’t steal my ear
Still couldn't steal my dignity
When I said Im gonna kill em ya know, I meant it literally
In a literal sense and with a literacy
When i'm writing a rhyme it's like an epitaph
Better laugh when I'm bringing meta to severe enemies second half
Credit that to somebody else
Cuz i never get caught red handed, i planned it
A mantis, preying on an ant and I've landed
(Yeah)
I do not think that they ready yet...
Get ready set , No don't you dare
I get the feeling that most of these rappers they feeling are way unprepared
There's just no way they compare
Even at my age no way that its fair
You get no points out here winning a race against those who severely impaired
Why the fuck aint we there?
Living how them other rappers living up in isolation streaming like they haven't got a care??!?
Instead
find I'm living how I'm always fucking living
Depressed
in isolation feeling aint nobody care (yeah)
Life aint never fair but you fare better when you gain control of your affairs
When it's fair weather you gon' notice everybody there
So make a note of folk who there when there's rain in the air
Cuzzzzzzz
Cuz that's when you'll notice if they really got your back
Cuz most of the time you will find its the ones that surround you that hold you back
Now I grown to notice that
when you unnoticed there's no time to phone you back
Maintain your focus and cut off the waste in fact
They be the ones who now pissed I aint wrote em back
LISTEN
Cuz they dont understand what its like living life down here down here
Well fuck off
Ya phone calls cutoff
Your whole crew gon soft
Everybody's trippin as i climb on top of
The whole scene lock' off
See me Im Sir Alex with my verse
I'll embarrass you with words
those who sat upon their perch
guaranteed get knock' off
Dangerous
yeah that's what they gon label us
So deft , like Mata when I take a touch
Whilst they left like Lukaku as a waste of
Shhhhhhhhhhh
Look, words into something that could turn into something all we needs a little faith in us
I said the waiting is over
We Hate Being Sober , it's you who gon be chasing us
(Uh) Dangerous
Change is coming and it's difficult obtaining justice
The evidence sits right there
They aint see it
Like an elephant sitting in the corner of the room
Like a television
You couldn't get this far
Nah your metal detector cant detect this bar
And its gold and totally non reactive
To the bullshit coming out their jaws that's flapping
I never wanna be solo again
Do it with no hands like solo again
No i never wanna be so low that i gotta watch my moves like go pro again
Let it go to the end cuz my flows so heavy that it don't stop coming like i opened a vein
Never choking again until i choke you outside in the rain
Let the evidence float down the drain
Like pennywise
I'm not clowning i done this many times
And i'm not drowning
Beginning a steady rise
Up to the top of the game
Like snakes and ladders i avoid the fake ones
I'm already climbing
Now I'm on to a winner
See a fake bitch on to me and then i chin her
Off quick
Get a drop kick and tell me
How does it feel to get beat by a little goth bitch!?!
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3. |
The Plug
03:32
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Mic check
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yayyyy
Brinkworth Music
Kenny Cadence
Hate Being Fucking Sober
Listen
Look
Look
Look , you aint dealing with no average rappers
Ask about us
Been about for years, aint no fad it's had us
Trapped, had us detached from all of the things that mattered in fact
If you'd have told me this shit when I started I probably wouldn’t have wanted to rap
If you'd ask me to swap
For all that I lost
I never would give it you it back
Had to adapt to master the craft
And what I developed is something to last
As a matter of fact
It be the reason why I'm fucking here
Sometimes you have to cuss to make it fucking clear
Anyway let's step away from all that skippy shit
The lamest way to trick the kids to thinking that you really spit
The brilliance is found beneath the roughage
Underground we keep it buzzing
Still our sound don’t reach the public
Every now n then
Get a shot to try to reach above it
But with crabs around ya ankles know it's hard to breach the bucket
Reefer puffing Clouds of smoke as my thoughts
Pulled about in the storm
Rearrange to fit the beat from which they sprouted and form
A sick arrangement
Spit a phrase , can bring a big amazement
Been away but aint afraid to reengage and hit the pavement
It's a shame he didn’t make it
His engagement dissipated
Way before his twitter page did
All the buzz disintegrated
All cuz he won't integrate with all of the vultures
Who standing at the door to the culture
Keep ignoring their calls
I'll perform but can't record you no features
I don't want to make no group or play support to eediots
I just wanna drop a set to share my thoughts and then leave
But most these rapping cunts won't have you 'less they holding your sleeves
Or on their pocket on some T-Bag tip
They gossip over tea bags it's
No wonder why I didn't sign
They all a bunch of hypocrites
Listen
Admitting it is half of the battle
Leaving half of 'em rattled
Quarter ran
The other quarter recognise why I'm at you
Salute the few who tried to dive in and tackle
Shit is brave, though all in vein as I stay sliding right past you
My punches sound like a bass drum when it thumps
Oomph!
That’s just based on proof, look,
I hate the pedestal that you’ve been placed onto
Mm, that’s just based on truth
Let’s talk 2
Decades of lyricism, I walked straight into this criticism
Born with the umbilical cord, wrapped round my neck twice
Pretty biblical or more precise
Now I just rap in chords, this isn’t even
Me at full force
Not even an Egan punchline could match my 4 adlib’s acting like a chorus
See back in June, I said in August
I’ll inject a shot aimed at the stars no Almagest
But I got my sons endorsement
Now be fully honest with me whats more important,
The lessons learned or the lessons I could teach
See if I can talk then
Should have taught them
Studying a craft shouldn’t lead to boredom
And now my daughter
Wants to get into this line of work, cause she just picked a boyfriend
Who just started spitting
That addictive nature started the kick in the groin trend
But Ive seen a lot of annoying ends to promising careers
No dishonouring in here
Sick of the bollox of the politics its clear
That I could vomit on a song and interfere
Like Kanye with an award and it would still be like I wasn’t even here
I’ll keep going to the bitter end I’ll never be Pete Dunn,
Jump off into the deep end
I’ll do it now like I did it then,
Let the beat bump, until they speak of the wordplay in Sweedun that he penned
Shit I meant Sweden
Must of briefly lost my mind, but Im still breathing
Need this to keep my mind occupied at the weekend,
Now once again I’m on the rise, songs compromised
I’m leaving
Yo
Who the fuck pulled the plug
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4. |
Falling Down
04:07
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All we know is falling down
We don’t know where we’re going
Now know
All we know is falling down down down
Going, now know, all we
All we know is falling down
We don’t know where we’re going
Now know
All we know is falling down down down
Going, now know, all we
I’ll admit it I was lost in the beginning
I was off spittin', spinning necks
When they found out that I wasn’t from their
Neck of the woods they said they were force fed
But I wouldn’t force feed
I’m from the north east where we’re bread differently
See the difference between us seemed
Like there was an audience who just couldn’t be reached
Time to throw caution to the wind
We would ship CD’s out of car boots
AC and Terra Slim, them sort of veterans
But I never thought there was anybody better than
Absorb
There’s one that i wouldn’t go and bet against
Then again he said I was evidence
Of growth and a flow so elegant
Time to address the elephant in the room
Guess this is where I vent again
Now I’m having to think outside of the box
How in the fuck am I supposed to speak to thousands of bots
With fake streams, riding waves
I can make it sound rough but look at us
We ain’t giving up yet
Wanna talk about an upset
Look who’s up next
Fellow students open your subject books and allow me to dive into this subtext
From the best of British Capriciouz
COV, Moorish Delta the sickest
Wish Emz hadn’t left
They would have built exhibits about her explicits by now but
All I’m hearing is poor excuses
Fuckin Rawroots gave us a platform
I may be clutching at straws
But I swore that Stu was busting down doors
So we could go and walk straight through them like
All we know is falling down
We don’t know where we’re going
Now know
All we know is falling down down down
Going, now know, all we
All we know is falling down
We don’t know where we’re going
Now know
All we know is falling down down down
Going, now know, all we
Listen
I said it seems like all the things I built up
Slowly started falling down right around me
Course I know the road we chose would be tough
But never thought I wouldn’t recognise my surroundings
Everything I put all on my focus on lost
Think of all the years that i spent on this craft
And I wonder if its me who has lost the whole plot
Aint nothing like the vision that Double had once had
See I come from a long line of writers
Real rhymers
Yeah I’m talking the finest
The Mike GLC’s and the Genesis Elijah’s
Skinnyman, Sway, SAS
So timeless
Kners, Pelo , Dread, them guys that
Set a level to reach
Then came Kane n Ghetts
N Wretch n C
Besides Mic aint like no one levelling these
I mean
Thats a Shout out to Britizen
Him and Anti the only ones
Course there could be more I coulda wrote but don’t ask me
Guess I aint scrolling through my phone enough
Hence the strength of text that I flex through vocals
Complex God like the way I bless the pro tools
Inject my soul to be the best unknown too
I refuse to take the lengths or go the depths they go to
These days aint about who's best thats old news
Its all about the way that you can flex on socials
When you full up on a constant stream of pop tarts
Guess its hard Digesting soul food
Listen
Man I wish that you could
Coz I’m sick of being lost in the madness
And I dunno where we going from here but I
Know that we'll make it happen regardless
All we know is falling down
We don’t know where we’re going
Now know
All we know is falling down down down
Going, now know, all we
All we know is falling down
We don’t know where we’re going
Now know
All we know is falling down down down
Going, now know, all we
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I know I was built for this shit
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
(Yeah Yeah)
Yeah Yeah
I know I was built for this shit
(This shit yeah)
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
So please don’t start to doubt me now
Listen
I been doing this a long time
You could say that this aint nothing new to me
Started on this Road to my Improvement back in '05
Those times
Double was the name that they would use for me
See trouble often came more than good news to me
I stepped up Out the Darkness and
Exceeded whats assumed of me
Tried to keep my circle tightly knitted but it loosened
Seen my back get swiftly stabbed by those
Who sat there in the room with me
Believe I been through it all
For every step that I took forward was a couple I'd fall
Become accustomed to destruction
Often clutching at straws
The frustration had me punching the walls
I admit I lost my grip and slipped and
Found my face was stuck to the floor
But I get up again give up and you gain nothing at all
Thats real
And I don’t feel to suffer no more
Plus what's a little rain to someone who came up in a storm ya know
I know I was built for this shit
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
(Yeah Yeah)
Yeah Yeah
I know I was built for this shit
(This shit yeah)
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
So please don’t start to doubt me now
I was formed in an era where skill means something
Either
You can hang or get hung
I’m not stopping for breath
Imagine if I wasn’t a big believer of my own skill
Recognise I won’t be stopping early either
I remember rhyming with Deela Dope and Regeneli from Birmingham
Trying to get a deal with CvR or a feature with CoV
Like here we are
It was like my ego teasing I seemed to be
Losing my way and trail of thought I was trailing off
Into a deep black hole, I couldn’t face it all
By myself, had to find some help
Got to raise this bar
I had an itch then picked the scab ’til it became a scar
If I failed once, I failed a thousand times
I could name around 5 particular instances
But the CD insert says
That I’m going to get mine
So believe in these countless hours
Because I know I was
I know I was built for this shit
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
(Yeah Yeah)
Yeah Yeah
I know I was built for this shit
(This shit yeah)
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
So please don’t start to doubt me now
When you spit like you’re the hottest on the earth
You can’t drop a mercury
The jerk in me just stands out in crowds
My parents always taught me
Move like a God and shoot for the stars
Incase I fall I’m bound to land on a cloud
Speaking of clouds when there was
Dark clouds, harsh winds, hail precipitation
Or some cold fronts from haters gave me major indications
Of a hurricane, tsunami or tornado devastation
My forecast prediction was rain
Not the kind you need
Umbrellas, raincoats or ponchos for
Where an oceans natural inhabitants are washed onshore
This is the type of rain that breeds generational wealth
So the kids and my kids, kids won’t have to want no more
I’ve been through the storms like troopers in Star Wars
They was kind of like the one Noah built the ark for
Way before I had my sons I been shining
And ya’ll saw like saw 4 when Im gone
There’s still an encore
Good God
I know I was built for this shit
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
(Yeah Yeah)
Yeah Yeah
I know I was built for this shit
(This shit yeah)
I know that I came equipped to
Weather any storm
So please don’t start to doubt me now
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6. |
Confession Tape
04:55
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Listen
Look
Look
Said lately I been tryna get my mind right
Reminiscing
Wrestling with hindsight
I Been so pessimistic never did think I'd climb
Up from out the hole that I done dug myself in past times
Look
I think I need a better pastime
Cuz smoking everyday gon' make me fucking crazy
It only takes an hour for me to do this
But I barely put out music
Fair to say that I been fucking lazy
And I done thought of many reasons
So creative with excuses even I would start believing
All the lies I've told myself to stop me feeling how I'm feeling
I been weak and steady bleeding whilst the world thought I was healing
I
I Wish I could just make me one song
Where I do not have to open up and speak about my demons
I
I wish I could just go through one night
Without feeling how I'm feeling and just
Sleep when I close my eyes
I
I guess I'm searching for change
I swear it's like when things are good then I go searching for pain
I often think about a way to leave this earth but I stay
And there I go again proving to you all I'm insane
Now look
Been talking to myself more than I ever have
At war with what I never had and fought to get forever back
Recreated every error made that ever set me back
That means I'm running round in circles if you getting that
See the time you waste in life you cannot get it back
And your decisions will dictate the type of threat you have
Far from a leader I can bet you that
Said , I'm not hear to be no preacher I’m just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I used to stand with conviction
Until I stood on that stand and got convicted
I was convinced that
Everybody was against me
But in reality
I was my own worst enemy
And these people were just trying to help me
Get out of that dark place that I was in
The devils pulling me one way
My inner child can see my wrong doings
Kneeling at his bed
Begging God please let him in
Its no wonder I penned an EP
For the Karmic Debt that I’m in
Never mind my younger years though
They were minor
Came up with a mindset that
I was ahead of my time and
In a weird sort of way I was right
Should have put the work in
But I acted like a sick note
Thought that I set the tone on the mic
But Nope
I would practise in mirrors and wouldn’t choke but
Another empty venues and friends who were no shows
Ironic because without a crowd there is no show
I kept telling myself it would work out like
Yeah I hope so
Back to square one after going in circles
I wrote like I was trying to fit circles in square holes
I’d make a fist and tap a rhythm
Work my knuckles to the bare bones
See others being put on like
No
Don’t you dare moan
Re-plan re-schedule react
Its still in you re plant
those seeds to get back
Give it all your time and effort
surely somebody will pick it up
Just a bunch of fire emoji comments
Back to relying on promise
Id battle these independent battle rappers at skate parks
But was too scared to enter battle leagues
Wont stop until I’m the last to breathe
But don’t go testing that
Im just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
I'm just saying where my head is at
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7. |
Hopeless
03:42
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Uh
Mic check
Brinkworth Music
Listen, Look
Hate Being Sober
Been waiting on this moment I can savour something
Major, even sacred , have you feeling like ya saviour's coming
Trained , sought opponents everyday been on my game I've hunted
Thus I gained the patience of a soldier
Can't engage for nothing
I don't feel no threat or feel to fight
Since I left the waiting room and chose my next move I would write
So much I blessed you with a legacy
Let you know my vibe
Since I took my Leap Of Faith and set to tell you bout my life
I cannot hide the things inside
I let off in the booth
Learnt they stay here when you lie
But get to stepping when there's truth
In this world we demonise and then we Weaponise the youth
Dismiss the facts and judge you based on what they reckon without proof
And It's a cold game
The system has no shame
They let predators walk free
But sell edibles, you caged
Developing new ways to head up the food chain
Sick of living of the scraps that we given
We want change
Gotta stay calm work hard keep focused
Think smart take charge raise hope just
Keep moving forward on our grind
And keep this in our minds whenever we feel hopeless
Stay calm work hard keep focused
Think smart take charge raise hope just
Keep moving forward on our grind
And keep this in our minds whenever we feel hopeless
Stop over thinking, over contemplating, over drinking
An over saturated market has me over hearing
those appearing out of the cracks like open evening
Scattered thoughts merge together are we over killing
They say I’m under achieving, I say its over baring
Under the weather, I say Im open airing
Under the radar, I say I’m over daring
Under appreciated, Over caring
I’m still the same guy who first rhymed from out The Crescent
They call it trying, ha, I call it hopeless efforts
I hear a lot of talking, but don’t you dare try
And place them on the same steps coz there aint no comparing
That means I’m back to being the underdog
Which is fine considering I wondered off
But look at what I conjured up
But don’t act like I’m not on it
Coz if I really am the under dog then
I’ll be calling myself whats literally under the dog
And thats the dogs bollox
Stay calm work hard keep focused
Think smart take charge raise hope just
Keep moving forward on our grind
And keep this in our minds whenever we feel hopeless
Stay calm work hard keep focused
Think smart take charge raise hope just
Keep moving forward on our grind
And keep this in our minds whenever we feel hopeless
Wooo!
Hate Being Sober
I am him
Kenny Cadence
Alongside my partner in rhyme
Brinkworth Music
Maybe now you’ll put us in that conversation huh
And don’t think this is just a one and done either
We’re here for the fucking long run
Get another round in
Remember the fucking name
Hate Being Sober
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Hate Being Sober UK
HATE BEING SOBER consists of two UK Hip Hop artists, Lee Brinkworth and Mark Naylor. Better known to their audiences as BRINKWORTH & KENNY CADENCE.
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